did i see?

I sit in bed, feeling changed, yet not knowing if it will keep up or if I will be able to hold the cards for longer, into the weeks and months and years that speed past me. The experience Thursday night did transform me, yet in the back of my head the worm doesn't want me to follow up later.

Always short term, not lasting, like gum, losing its flavour until you're back to having the chess pieces all lined up again. It's already happened, but tomorrow I will try and speak after work over crêpes with a friend.

Anyway, 6 am calls me already, as does the shower if I get up in time. But once again, its the worm that doesn't permit me to.

I know that there will be something soon that will encourage me, and all the stars will come back, and my Bowser might just disappear, even if for a short time.

Oh, and that other thought.

I want that toy back, the one I was going to break in June anyway, but someone took the batteries out for me, saving me from some wreckage.

I suppose, as I was told last night, its probably just the novelty

The blanket needs to be just over my shoulders, then my head won't drown.

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